Musings

This is a harrowing true story of an ordinary person - one who might live next door to you, or work with you, or go to your church. Ordinary people live from day to day never expecting to be caught up in an overpowering whirlwind of incredible and extraordinary circumstances that would change their life forever. We tend to feel that we are self-sufficient and invulnerable. Even as we profess our faith in God, can we truly say that we place our lives into His hands? Do we really trust God or are we just going through the "acceptable" motions? "If it is to be, it will be by me" was once my mantra. Even though I felt that I was a strong Christian - confident in my faith walk - I struggled with a tiny lingering vestige of this flawed mantra. Not until "I looked into the face of Satan" (Luke 10:18) did I come into full realization of what it meant to trust God. When the shocking realization gradually unfolded I could not accept or believe it. This could not be happening! Not my friends, my family, my neighborhood, my country! The knowledge of it was stifling, choking, horrifying! I had put my trust in mankind and mankind was letting me down. My democratic country was letting me down. This Christian nation was letting me down. There was nowhere I could run and nowhere to hide. Fear, heartbreak and relentless pain were ever present, like a hovering specter. I had almost given up had it not been for the reviving belief that I would see the goodness of the Lord. How many of us can look in the mirror and see the real person? How many of us can commit heinous acts if we thought we could do it with impunity? How many of us are smug in our spiritual walk - thinking we "have it like that"? This story is one of spiritual warfare wherein one had to examine the depth, height and breadth of their walk with God - one who was just an ordinary person - like you. This book is the chronicle of the life of a targeted individual. It lays out the